nervosa

Yesterday, Friday, was a late day.  I wasn't scheduled to go in to work until 11am, so I took advantage of the time.  I woke up early and had leftovers for breakfast, chillaxed with the furbabies, showered, ate a small quick lunch becos I knew there would be no break in sight once I set foot in the path lab. But what mostly hung in the back of my mind was making an appointment with a fertility specialist.

I was nervous, but bit the bullet and called for a Monday appointment. Why was I nervous? I don't really know.  It seems silly now, but my palms were sweating and my heart was beating fast.  Once I called I started out with, "I know this is a long shot, but I'll be a new patient, I have insurance, Do you have anything open this coming Monday?" The receptionist paused for a moment and offered an afternoon appointment. I felt silly becos the day before the receptionist from our vet had marched into my work place and was acting a fool! She walked in demanding that we verify her insurance, but didn't want to make an appointment.  Plus, she wanted pricing for surgeries that we normally take care of during a consult, and the billing specialist is the one who handles that! The coworker bombarded with this craziness seemed annoyed so I intervened. I popped over to the check-in window and greeted the gal, "Heeeeeeeey, you work over at Brodie?! I'm Bear's mom!" She recognized me and changed her tone.  She was much more compliant after that.  I thought to myself, "Who does that?" Who walks into an office and acts crazy?  And is it okay to act crazy if you don't know anyone there? But what if you run in to someone you know? I'd be embarrassed for acting like a nut.

I dwelled on the idea of the appointment all day.  I'll admit that I was somewhat distracted at work, but I was by myself.  After a work day that lasted two hours too long, I rushed home and got ready for my bestfriend's husband's HS team's soccer match.  Those kids are super adorable and tiny! It's the JV team, but they have spunk and won 2-0 against Lake Travis. 

Once at home I realized that I had been going non-stop all day and fell into bed.  Maybe I'm not so nervous after all.