“There are two mistakes one can make along the road to truth - not going all the way and not starting.”
-Buddha
One of my sorority sisters posted this quote on Facebook at the beginning of the month. When I first read it I felt like crying. The thoughts and emotions it sparked were exhilarating. It was a moment of clarity and I hope to live it by the end of this year. I'm so grateful to Anna O. for posting this becos it felt like a sign that was meant for me.
Step 1
I started looking at graduate school and pre-reqs today. It always seemed so unattainable and I was discouraged from looking. Now I'm wondering why I hadn't done it sooner? It's easier than the mountain I had made it out to be.
Step 2
I began the application to register for the Foreign Services exam. I don't think I'm quite ready for the February 2012 test date, but I plan on registering for the June exam.
baby steps.
*update 1/18/12
I wasn't able to say this in person today, but the enthusiasm you had for my snaillike blossoming progress is much appreciated. The reason being becos when I mentioned grad school to Maund his response was "You need to grow up." No exclamation, non-advisory, but more like a stop-fucking-around connotation. When I mentioned the idea and Maund's response to some Trans, Lil Z was floored and said she was surprised at his remark being that this could greatly benefit my career and our standard of living. That's what I thought, and I felt like a kid being scolded for wanting more or something better than what I have now.
So, thank you. Thanks for being my motivation.
*update 1/18/12
I wasn't able to say this in person today, but the enthusiasm you had for my snaillike blossoming progress is much appreciated. The reason being becos when I mentioned grad school to Maund his response was "You need to grow up." No exclamation, non-advisory, but more like a stop-fucking-around connotation. When I mentioned the idea and Maund's response to some Trans, Lil Z was floored and said she was surprised at his remark being that this could greatly benefit my career and our standard of living. That's what I thought, and I felt like a kid being scolded for wanting more or something better than what I have now.
So, thank you. Thanks for being my motivation.
